One of the hardest nights I’ve had in a while. Realizing you couldn’t make someone happy is really difficult. Realizing nothing in your life is going to be the same anymore is really hard. Looking at yourself and questioning whether or not you can ever make someone smile ever again is the hardest thing ever. Nothing in life is what you expected..everything is changing constantly. You just have to sit there and watch everyone else be happy as your life falls apart in absolute misery.